Thursday, October 28, 2010

Chapter 28

It’s been a week and I haven’t spoken to either of them. It seems like it’s been forever since I’ve even seen them. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, but I don’t think I’m ready to choose anyone just yet. But I do know one thing…

I love them both. A lot.

“How am I supposed to choose?” I asked Kristi falling down on the couch.

“I don’t know, be patient, maybe there will be a sign”

“I’ve been patient” I whined, “It’s been a long time”

“Honey, do they both make you happy?”


“Who means more to you?”

“I’ve shared a lot with Kris, but with Max, we’ve had a lot of fun, and he’s been a really good listener, and he’s been there for me”

“Has Kris been there for you?”

“Well…not recently”

“Who came to see you?”


“Where’s Kris?”

“I don’t know Kristi!” I snapped, “I just know that I can’t break either of their hearts”

“Okay, I’m going to be honest, I’m Team Max”

I just sighed and looked up at her, “You’ve never met Kris…he’s sweet, caring, he goes out of his way for me, the way his hair falls in his face when he takes his helmet off, the way he wears his hats backwards all the time, how he bites his lip when he’s nervous, his little smirk when he makes a joke, the way he can make me laugh so easily after pissing me off…” my voice trailed off and Kristi just shook her head and stood up.

“You just figured it out sweetie…”


“Take your time, you should probably talk to Max first though…”

“Yah…I will”

My head started spinning, but thinking about being with Kris again, actually got me excited. I did really miss him. Kris and I were meant for each other, we always were, no matter what got in our way…we always managed to find our way back.

The guys were getting back from a road trip tonight, so I thought talking to Max tonight would be perfect. I grabbed my phone to call him when it started ringing in my hand, it was him. How weird.

“Hey Max…”

“Hey Jules”

“What’s up?”

“Just wanted to see if you wanted to grab a coffee later”

“Sure…that sounds great”

“Alright, I’ll stop by in a couple hours”


I hung up the phone and immediately got sick to my stomach. I wasn’t used to hurting people like that, intentionally. I mean, I can’t have them both, one of them was going to be hurt, and in my opinion, I think Max would have gotten over it a lot easier then Kris would have.

I heard a knock on the door, so I took another quick look in the mirror and opened it. The fact that he was looking this good, was starting to make this a lot harder.

“Um, how are you?” I asked.

“I’m good, how are you?”

I shut the door behind me and started walking towards his car, “I’m good”

The rest of the walk to the car was silent. I felt the tension inside the car as we made it to the Starbucks. As I stepped out I felt like I could breathe again. He opened the door for me and I sat down at the corner table, and he bought the coffees.

“Okay…” he said sitting down, “Here’s the thing--”

“I’m choosing Kris” I blurted out. Nice going Julie, that was probably your worst move, ever.

“I know”

I raised an eyebrow at him and cocked my head to the side, “You do?”

“The entire road trip something was eating away at me, then I saw Kris, and I have never seen the guy more miserable in my life. He misses you, and I’ve been trying to ignore it, but you two, you’ve been through too much”

I stared at him stunned, dumbfounded, in shock, whatever word you could think of, that was me, “But, you--I thought, what?”

“I do love you Julie, really, but you love Kris, and he loves you, more than I love you…”

“I’m sorry Max…”

“It’s okay” he chuckled, “I’ll get over it, you can’t always get what you want”

“That’s true”

“You should go talk to him” he replied, “He’s been moping, and he hasn’t been producing anything in his game right now”


He just nodded, “Good luck”

I stood up and wrapped my arms around him. He squeezed me gently before letting me go, “Go”

“Thank you Max”

I pulled my phone from my pocket and texted him. Told him to stay at home, and that I would be there in a minute. He agreed and I practically ran to his place. I’ve never ran so hard in my life.

I knocked on the door, and stood there, sweaty, tired and breathless as he opened it, “Hi…”

“Jules” a small smirk spread across his face.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry…it’s you” I said, “It’s always been you”

He had the same look on his face I did just minutes ago talking to Max. I just sighed placed my hands on his cheeks and looked up at him, “I’m sorry”

“No more sorries”


“I love you, I never stopped”

“Neither did I”

He grabbed my hand and pulled me into the apartment, I just giggled as he gently brushed his lips against mine. I just pulled away and wrapped my arms around him, something I haven’t felt in a long time.

“I want you to have something” he said.


He walked into the bedroom and quickly re-emerged holding something behind his back. I narrowed my eyes and pursed my lips, “What is it?”

He gently took my hand in his and put the ring on with his other. The ring that marked our engagement not too long ago, “We don’t have to rush, but I’m marrying you, whether it’s in a day, six months or two years”

“Yes you are”

He just smiled and gently kissed me again. This was it. This is definitely what I wanted.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Chapter 27

I know you don't want to hear this, but Please Be Mine will be ending very shortly. But there are still some surprises ahead. It would be really great if I could get a decent amount of comments on the next couple chapters. I know I haven't been posting regularly, but I think some inspiration is coming back. So enjoy, and comment please !

There was a part of me that got kind of excited, but the other part was disappointment.

I looked up as I heard a knock on the doorframe. I have to admit, this was not my finest hour. Getting out of bed never is. I quickly ran my fingers through my hair and fluffed it out a bit.

“I have to get to work” Kristi said, “I’ll be back later tonight”

“Alright…see you then”

I heard the front door of the apartment shut and I continued to keep eye contact with Max, “Hi”


“How did you find me?” I asked.

“Friend of a friend…I have my ways” he smirked.

I just laughed, “Well it’s nice to see you, but why are you here?”

“I don’t know…I had to see you”

“I wasn’t exactly…expecting company” I replied, “If you couldn’t tell”

He just laughed, “I can tell”

“Max, I told you I needed--”

“I know” he interrupted, “I just, I need you to know that I love you, and whatever you decide, it’s okay with me. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I can’t always get what I want”

I just sighed and hung my feet off the edge of my bed. My head was spinning, when wasn’t it spinning? I just don’t understand this at all. Why me?

“I don’t know how it ended up like this”


“I fell in love with Kris, and I never even expected for him to reciprocate those feelings. Yet, he finally did, and we’ve been through a lot, and I don’t know how he still loves me now. I’ve screwed up, countless times, made a fool of myself, it makes no sense. And why you fell for me is beyond my comprehension”

He just chuckled, “You don’t give yourself enough credit”


“We love you for you. You take care of everyone before you even realize that you’re a mess. You’ll do anything to brighten a situation. Your laugh is contagious, and the way you can so easily just strike up a conversation with a random stranger. You have this vibe about you Jules, a happy one. And you practically keep us all in check, without you around Kris and I might have killed each other already” he was sitting down beside me at this point.

I just smirked, “That last part is true”

“There’s that smile I’ve been waiting for” he replied.

“I’m sorry Max, for getting us all into this”

“It’s okay, I just hope you make the right choice, I’ll be here for you no matter what”

He just stood up from the bed and leaned down to place a kiss on my forehead, “I love you”

“I know” I simply replied.

He walked out of the bedroom and out the front door. I just laid sideways across the bed and closed my eyes. I needed to picture who I could see myself with in five, ten, twenty years from now, when they retire from hockey, and we have 3 kids standing in front of us, and a gorgeous ring on my left hand.

Right now, it’s sad to say I don’t know.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Chapter 26

I know it's been a while since I posted but better late than never right? Finally getting the urge to write a bit now and then. School is starting soon though, so we'll see how it all goes. I hope you enjoy this one :)

“Hey love” Kristi said as she opened her door, “How’s everything?”

“Not good” I sighed.
She shut the door behind me and I slipped my shoes off. She disappeared into the kitchen and I collapsed onto her couch. She appeared in front of me with two bottles and handed me one, “I want you to tell me everything”

Two hours and four Bud Light’s later, I found myself still ranting and crying. What is my life right now? Two guys, one me, I don’t even know what’s so great about me that they find they have to fight over me. Now I’m the one who has to make the decision.

“So Kris is the love of your life, and Max just came in out of nowhere, am I right?”

“Well, when Kris and I were having issues…he was there, he was my best friend”

“Do you love him?”

“Whoa, that’s kind of a loaded question don’t you think?”

“Not really…have you slept with him?”

“WHOA, no!”

She just smirked, “Sorry, I had to ask”

I just shook my head and set my empty bottle on the table in front of me. She grabbed mine and hers and set them in the kitchen, “Ju, the only thing I can tell you is think about it. Who you can picture your life with, who you’re really in love with, the one you know will always be there for you”

“It’s not that simple Kristi”

“I didn’t say it was simple. Think about it, sleep on it, just don’t over think it, it’s right in front of your face”

I looked at the clock, almost 2am.

“I think I’m going to try and sleep” I replied, “I’ll talk to you in the morning, again, I really appreciate this Kristi”

“Anytime my dear, there’s some extra clothes in the bedroom, feel free to borrow them”


I shut the door behind me and searched through the dresser in the corner of the small bedroom. I found a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. I cleaned myself up in the bathroom and climbed into the bed practically calling my name.

I thought and thought and thought until my head was literally hurting. I couldn’t decide, I couldn’t pick one and not the other, yet, I couldn’t live my life without either of them.

Just pick one Julie, you’d be happy with either one. Just pick one.

My eyes slowly shut, and I was out.


I opened my eyes and saw Kristi standing over me, “What time is it?”

“Almost noon” she replied, “Someone was tired”


“And you have a visitor”

“Excuse me?”

“A very good looking one I might add”

I sighed, “Which one?”


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

New stories, need some readers

new story, trying to get some inspiration, so i can continue with old stories, especially please be mine. Be aware, i'm not done with please be mine.

a story my friend and i are writing. it's about our swede loves, not your typical fan fiction, but it's really good, we've been working really hard on it and i think you guys would really enjoy it. so give it a shot :) please

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Just so you're aware

I just want you all to know that I have had no inspiration whatsoever. Nothing. Notta. It's bad. I'm trying, believe me. Nothing is coming to me, and it blows. I have no satisfaction in writing anymore. I don't understand this. I hope something comes to me very soon. I promise you, you'll be the first to know when I have an update, obviously. I'll do what I can, asap. Thanks so much to my amazing readers, you keep me writing !

Monday, June 7, 2010

Chapter 25

A tad short, but it's all I can come up with. I need a way to keep this going without being repetitive and unoriginal. I hope you like ! Comments are greatly appreciated and encourage : D

This was too weird. I stood there looking up at him, my mind was running in thousands of directions and I couldn’t speak. I think it was his turn to speak.

“Julie, I don’t want to confuse you”

I stepped back and shook my head, “It’s a little late for that”

“I’m sorry”

“No…I’m sorry”

“But I--”

“No, I went through so much with him” I said, “I love him, I really do, but every time you come around, and say what you say, and do what you do, and when you kiss me…” my voice trailed off.

“Jules but--”

“I can’t love him and still string you along, it’s not fair to either of you”

“Can I talk?” he asked.

I just nodded my head and waited for him to speak.

“You know, the first thing that attracted me to you, was how you put everyone before yourself, the guys, even the coaches”

“What’s your point?”

“Sometimes, you care a little too much, and right now, you need to stop trying to please everyone. I’ll be heartbroken if you pick Kris, and vice versa, but we’ll get over it, because we’ll have to. So if you love Kris, then go back there and tell him that, but if you can’t make up your mind then go home and do some serious thinking about who you want in your life…because I already know who I want”

I just sighed, “wow, I always thought of you as the kind of guy to go after what he wants, and not let his fate be chosen for him”

“Well, in this case, I care too much about you to force you into a decision that you don’t want to make” he shrugged, “I just hope you make the one that’s right for you”

“I need to do some thinking” I said.

“Julie!” I looked over Max’s shoulder and saw Kris. I couldn’t help but smile.


“I’m sorry, I was really stupid”

“It’s okay Kris. But I don’t think we’re ready to be together right now”

He raised his eyebrow and stared at me dumbfounded, “but I thought--”

“I thought I had my head figured out Kris, but I really don’t. I can’t be with you, and lead him on like I have been, it’s not fair”

They both just looked at each other than back at me.

“I’ll be at Kristi’s place, a girl I went to school with a while back. Give me a few days. Play your games, go on your road trip and maybe when you get back, I’ll have this figured out”

Kris just sighed, “This is getting really stupid Julie”


“If you can’t be with me, without stringing him along, maybe you’re not ready for a commitment”

“Maybe I’m not” I snapped, “I’m not forcing you to wait Kris, if you want to move on, I’m plenty fine with that”


“I know you don’t understand it Kris, please just respect how I feel”

“Why do you make it so difficult to love you sometimes?”

“This is just who I am”

I looked at both of them and felt overwhelmed. Look at them, the both of them are perfection. I’m just the girl that they both happened to fall in love with, at the same time. Sometimes I really don’t feel like I’m even worth either of their time.

“I’m sorry” I said, “if you want to wait, then wait, if you don’t then I’ll have to deal with it and move on. I’ll just call you guys”

They both just nodded and I turned on my heel towards Kristi’s place. This should be simple, because I’m not even in love with Max. I’m in love with Kris. Right?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

It's coming

I will be posting a new chapter on here soon. My weekends are always busy with work, and my head is not in a good spot right now. But it will be up soon, I promise !