Chapter 17

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I woke up that morning to an empty apartment. Max must have left for practice. I just looked through my packed bag and put on a pair of dark jeans and a white v-neck t-shirt. I still didn’t know what to do. Without him, it seemed like my life was out of order. I missed him, simply put.

He would have been at practice too, so there was no point in trying to call him. I sat on Max’s couch and flipped through the channels, contemplating what I should do, I wasn’t even paying attention to the tv.

I heard the door open and Max emerge. I just smiled and he responded back with a smile.

“I’m surprised you’re still here” he said.

“I don’t know what to do anymore” I sighed, “I miss him, but if I go back, I’m just paranoid that something like this could happen again”

“Just so you know, he wasn’t in his right mind at practice today. Something was off”

I just swallowed a lump in my throat. He was in pain because of me. But I was in pain because of what he did to me. I need to talk to him, it hasn’t even been that long and I’m going insane.

“I need to talk to him” I said grabbing my keys. He just looked at me and I smiled, “Max, thank you for letting me stay here, I’ll be back for my stuff”

He just wrapped his arms around me and I kissed him on the cheek, “see you soon”

“Go get him”

I put the keys in the ignition and listened as the car came to life. I sped through the streets finally arriving at the place I called home for so long. I almost ran to the door, unlocked it and ran up the stairs. The door was slightly open, I quietly pushed it open and I saw Kris and the back of a tall blonde. You have got to be kidding me.

“What the fuck is this?” I snapped.

“Julie…”

“So this is her?” I heard the blonde say, who I knew as Kate.

“This is me” I replied, “why is she here?”

“Because you dumped him”

“I left him because of you!”

“Well either way, he’s with me now” she said wrapping her arm around him.

He pulled away, “that is not why you’re here”

“Then why is she?”

“Because I’m trying to tell her it’s over and done”

“Is that right?”

She just nodded and my stomach immediately filled with knots. He was dumping her. How do I know that on his next road trip he won’t just go and do this again with another girl he randomly meets?

“You need to go” he said. She just huffed, turned on her heel and was out the door.

I stood there staring at him. I had no idea what I was supposed to say or do. My heart started racing every second he moved closer to me. He just pulled me into a hug unwillingly. After a minute I decided to wrap my arms around him. I had to admit, it felt good.

“I’m sorry”

“I don’t believe you”

He just sighed and ran his hands through his hair.

“But it doesn’t mean I soon will…”

He just looked at me with a confused expression and I just looked down at the ground.

“I want you back, more than you’ll know, but you have to earn my trust back Kris. And if this happens again, don’t expect another chance. I will actually leave”

“I’ll take that”

“Ok then, let’s see if we can make this work”

A huge smile spread across his face and I couldn’t help but smile back. I don’t know how this will turn out, but I can’t live my life without him, and this is all I can do right now. I don’t know if he deserves this, but I need him.

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Chapter 16

“You cheated on her!?” he exclaimed shoving me into the wall.

“It was a mistake” I replied.

“A mistake that has a heartbroken girl sitting in my apartment with nowhere to go”

“She’s with you!?” I snapped clenching my fist

“She came to me, a friend” he replied.

“She stayed with you!?” I ignored what he said.

“I didn’t try anything on her Kris. She’s in love with you, I’m not that idiotic”

I just scoffed and tried to walk away but he grabbed my arm, “she left everything for you, you better think of a way to make this right before she’s gone for good” I just pulled away from him and walked down the hall.

I didn’t know what I was supposed to do anymore. All I knew was that I loved her and that everything I did was a mistake. I never meant to hurt her. I couldn’t bear to see her cry, it broke my heart. Watching her leave broke my heart.

We’ve been through a lot and for it all to be thrown away over this, is ridiculous. It is my fault, but she wouldn’t even talk about it. She wouldn’t even let me speak. She can be so hotheaded sometimes.

Walking into my empty apartment, felt empty. Obviously. A part of me was missing, it was too quiet without her around. Her being at Max’s is what got to me. Max? Of all her friends she goes to him? I’ve heard him talk about her before, it just never bothered me because I knew she was mine. I knew she would never go to him. Now, I can just see him pulling some stunt to get her in bed.

*Julie’s POV*

I was stuck in Max’s apartment. I wouldn’t leave, I wouldn’t go out into public, scared I would run into him. I wasn’t ready to talk to him right now. Not yet.

I heard the door open and Max came in, he just finished practice. I was just waiting to see if he would mention him, if he said anything about me.

“How was practice?”

“Fine” he replied, “he doesn’t look too good”

I just sighed and closed my eyes. He couldn’t be doing worse than me. He was the one that cheated on me. He hurt me. He broke my heart.

“Whatever”

“You need to talk to him” he said sitting beside me.

“I’m not ready to face him right now, just looking at him…” my voice trailed off.

“You can’t run away from it Jules”

“I know that” I snapped.

He just sighed and stood up. I just pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. He just stood in front of me and looked down at me, “what?”

“Just don’t do anything stupid” he simply said.

“I won’t” I mumbled.

He leaned down to kiss my cheek but I turned my head, not purposely, and he got my lips. And because of my emotional state, I took it a bit farther than necessary. He pulled away and I looked at him in shock.

“Um…”

“Yah…”

“That was nothing right?”

“Yah, nothing” he replied shaking his head.

“Alright then…”

He just moved away and disappeared into the kitchen. I tried to process what just happened. It didn’t mean anything. It couldn’t have. As much as I hated Kris right now, I still loved him. Very much. Max was just a friend, and it was an accidental kiss that shouldn’t have went as far as it did.

I stood up and walked into the bathroom to take a shower. As the hot water fell over me, I started to feel somewhat better. I had calmed down a bit since yesterday, but I still didn’t think I was ready to talk to him. I don’t think he was ready to talk to me. When he realizes how much he misses me and realizes how much he screwed up, he’ll come to me.

I wrapped a towel around me and walked into the spare bedroom that Max was letting me stay in. I walked in and shut the door behind me and then I jumped, almost losing my towel when I saw him standing by the window.

“Shit Max” I said putting my hand over my heart.

“Sorry” he replied. His face turned ten shades of red, “this room has the best view”

“Yah….can you go now?” I finally asked, when he hadn’t moved.

I saw his eyes look me up and down and then he finally moved. He walked by me and shut the door. He scared me to death, but the thing is…he didn’t make me feel uncomfortable. I was just in a towel and it felt as normal as if I was fully dressed. I don’t think that was the case for him though.

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Chapter 15

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Kris and I were finally starting to work things out. We were growing closer, and the feelings I never thought could ever grow any stronger, did just that. I was in love. Head over heels in love, I wanted to marry him. Except he is the one who has the ring, I just hope he considers re proposing. I really felt ready this time, I just don’t know if he feels ready too.

They were playing a few games at home, so Kris was practicing a lot. I only got to see him late at night, if that. It really sucked, because I feel lonely without him around.

“Julie?” I heard him say.

“Hey” I smiled, it’s the first time I saw him home in a while.

“I need to tell you something” he said.

There was something in his voice, it made me nervous.

“What?”

“On our past road trip, we went out after a win…”

“And?” I asked. My hands were shaking.

“There was another girl”

I immediately stepped back and closed my eyes. Was I dreaming? Was this a sick joke? He seriously didn’t do that to me. He couldn’t have.

“Did you sleep with another girl?”

“No” he quickly said, “but there was a kiss…and it went a little far”

My heart felt like it was shattering. I couldn’t believe he did this to me. After everything we’ve been through. The forbidden relationship. The proposal. Calling off the proposal. When I got a new job in Montreal. I left Montreal, my job, for him. All for him and he does this to me.

I did all I had the energy to do, I slapped him. He just put his hand on his cheek and sighed.

“I deserve that”

“You deserve a bit more than that” I snapped, “I left my job for you Kris. All for you. And you turn around and cheat on me? You said you loved me…”

“I do love you”

“How do I believe anything you say anymore?” I said, eyes welling up with tears.

“I wouldn’t lie to you about that”

“Oh but you’ll go behind my back and makeout with some whore you’ve known for five fucking minutes. You proposed to me. I thought that meant something…”

“You’re the one who called it off!” he barked.

“Oh, don’t turn this on me” I replied, “You agreed we weren’t ready for that. Now, when I thought we were actually ready, and I even thought about telling you…I don’t think we’ll ever be ready if you can’t keep your hands off of other women…”

“Now you want to marry me?” he snapped.

“Yes Kris. Forgive me for waiting a little while…I only want what’s best for us, for you. All I wanted was you Kris. But it seems I’m not the only one you wanted…”

I walked to our bedroom and slammed the door behind me, locking it quickly. I heard him knock on the door but I didn’t respond to it. I heard him curse at himself and hit the wall. Tears were starting to fall as everything was starting to process in my mind. I never thought he could ever do something like this.

“Julie” he said quietly, “please let me in…”

“Fine” I huffed.

I unlocked the door and sat on the edge of the bed. He sat down beside me and took my hand but I pulled it away from his and moved over.

“I’m sorry” he simply said, “I had a few drinks, I wasn’t in my right mind”

“I guess you should have thought of that when you started drinking then…” I said standing up. I heard his phone vibrate on the bed. I beat him to it to see the name on the caller Id. Blocked number. I answered.

“Hello?”

“Hi, is Kris there?”

“Who is this?”

“Kate” she simply replied.

“You’re not talking to him” I snapped.

“Why?”

“Because I’m his girlfriend” I replied, “so just try and call again…”

I snapped the phone shut and threw it at him. I grabbed a suitcase out of the closet and started firing things into it.

“What are you doing?” he sighed.

“I’m going to go back to Montreal, try and see if they will give me my job back and get away from this city and from you”

“Why can’t we talk about this?”

“Because you were unfaithful to me Kris” I shrugged, “you gave a girl your number, you were with someone else while I sat at home, waiting for you, missing you…”

“But I love you Julie”

“I love you too Kris, but right now that’s not enough if I can’t trust you”

I finished packing quickly and grabbed my keys. Without saying another word to him I shut the door behind me and didn’t look back. I couldn’t go too far right now so I just drove to the apartment of the first person that came to my mind. Max. Who has been grown to be a loyal friend since I worked with the Penguins.

“Julie…” he said opening the door of his apartment.

“Hi…I had nowhere else to go” I sighed.

“Come in” he said moving away from the door, “what brings you here?”

“Kris cheated on me…”

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Chapter 14

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We woke up around 7am, for a 10am flight back to Pittsburgh. I changed into a pair of dark ripped jeans, a white tank top and a grey knit cardigan. I threw my hair up into a ponytail and put on some light foundation and blush. I was not looking forward to seeing Kris.

*Kris’ POV*

She came out of the room and looked beautiful, as she always does. She didn’t even look at me as she slipped on a pair of shoes. I didn’t know what to do to make it up to her. I wanted to marry her, but maybe agreeing with the one person who’s opinion rarely mattered to her, was a mistake. I couldn’t just re-propose, because she would think I was doing it out of pity.

“I’ll be in the house” was all she said as picked up her bag and opened the door.
I just sighed as I watched her every move as she went towards the house and out of sight. I felt like an idiot right now, there had to be something I could do to make this right. Maybe if I wait a bit we can talk it out…

*Julie’s POV*

I walked into the house and sighed as I sat up on a bar stool at the island. I sighed loudly to get my mother's attention.

“Something wrong honey?” my mom asked as she was making eggs.
“We had a fight” I said grabbing an apple from the bowl.
“Was it a big one?”
I just showed her my hand, ringless.
“The engagement’s off?” she asked, I just saw my dad’s head shoot up.
“He agreed with what dad said, he made it sound like he didn’t want to even marry me” I said taking a bite.
“Well why would he agree with anything your father has to say?”
“Hey!” he exclaimed from the kitchen table.
“I know, that’s what I said!” I replied.
“I’m right here” he said again.
“Sorry dad”

I heard the door open and saw Kris come in, everyone went silent, until my mom broke it.

“Morning Kris sweetie” she said, “breakfast?”
“Not hungry” he simply replied, “can we talk?” he asked directing his attention to me. I just nodded and we moved to the living room.
I just stopped in the middle of the room and stared at him, “alright, talk”
“I feel awful for what I said last night”
“As you should”
“I just want to see if we can talk this out”
“Do you want to marry me or not Kris?” I asked.
“Of course I do. You know I love you”
“Then what is the point in waiting until we’re older”
“We’re not ready Julie. We’re already fighting over stupid things”
“I know…it’s already starting to drive us apart”

He just sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. I go crazy every time he does it.

“Remember when you proposed?” I asked him.
“I could never forget it”
“You said there was no point in waiting. You said you were ready”

He didn’t respond. He just looked down at the ground, trying to find the words to say. He looked back up at me, like he was ready to say something and then looked back down. I trapped him.

“I’m sorry” I whispered.
“You don’t have to be sorry for anything” he said quietly.
“Can we just go home?”
He just nodded and moved in for a hug. I didn’t budge and just wrapped my arms around him. I didn’t know what to think anymore.

We said our goodbyes to my parents and climbed into the car. It was a quiet ride to the airport, barely making a peep. We got to the airport and waited to board the flight for an hour, and again, not much was said…until we boarded the flight.

“Julie this is killing me” he said as we took our seats on the plane.
“It is really quiet” I sighed.
“Can we just work this out. Try this again…I love you too much to lose you”
“Alright” I simply said.
He reached in his pocket and pulled out the ring, I just stared at him and then back down at it.
“Not right now” I said quietly.
“Julie--”
“Kris, I don’t think we’re ready to be engaged”
He just nodded and put it back in his pocket, “whatever you want”
“Kris, just remember I love you…”
“I know”

We finally landed in Pittsburgh and I was relieved. I stepped out of the terminal into the airport, with Kris just behind me. We grabbed our bags and got our car that we left overnight. He drove us both home, and the ride was quiet.

We got to the apartment, grabbed our stuff and went upstairs. I sat on the couch and Kris just leaned against the wall. We wanted to talk, but I had no idea what to do.

“Kris, like you said on the plane, can we just be together? Without the pressure of being engaged. Maybe someday again, you‘ll propose, but after that fight, I see what my dad was afraid of”
“Ok” he sighed, “I guess it’s the best way to go”

I just stood up and wrapped my arms around his waist and rested my head on his chest and he just wrapped his arms around me. I closed my eyes and took in the moment.

“You’re not getting rid of me that easily” he whispered, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.
“I would never” I smirked looking up at him, and he just pulled me into another tight hug.