A tad short, but it's all I can come up with. I need a way to keep this going without being repetitive and unoriginal. I hope you like ! Comments are greatly appreciated and encourage : D
This was too weird. I stood there looking up at him, my mind was running in thousands of directions and I couldn’t speak. I think it was his turn to speak.
“Julie, I don’t want to confuse you”
I stepped back and shook my head, “It’s a little late for that”
“No, I went through so much with him” I said, “I love him, I really do, but every time you come around, and say what you say, and do what you do, and when you kiss me…” my voice trailed off.
“I can’t love him and still string you along, it’s not fair to either of you”
“Can I talk?” he asked.
I just nodded my head and waited for him to speak.
“You know, the first thing that attracted me to you, was how you put everyone before yourself, the guys, even the coaches”
“What’s your point?”
“Sometimes, you care a little too much, and right now, you need to stop trying to please everyone. I’ll be heartbroken if you pick Kris, and vice versa, but we’ll get over it, because we’ll have to. So if you love Kris, then go back there and tell him that, but if you can’t make up your mind then go home and do some serious thinking about who you want in your life…because I already know who I want”
I just sighed, “wow, I always thought of you as the kind of guy to go after what he wants, and not let his fate be chosen for him”
“Well, in this case, I care too much about you to force you into a decision that you don’t want to make” he shrugged, “I just hope you make the one that’s right for you”
“I need to do some thinking” I said.
“Julie!” I looked over Max’s shoulder and saw Kris. I couldn’t help but smile.
“I’m sorry, I was really stupid”
“It’s okay Kris. But I don’t think we’re ready to be together right now”
He raised his eyebrow and stared at me dumbfounded, “but I thought--”
“I thought I had my head figured out Kris, but I really don’t. I can’t be with you, and lead him on like I have been, it’s not fair”
They both just looked at each other than back at me.
“I’ll be at Kristi’s place, a girl I went to school with a while back. Give me a few days. Play your games, go on your road trip and maybe when you get back, I’ll have this figured out”
Kris just sighed, “This is getting really stupid Julie”
“If you can’t be with me, without stringing him along, maybe you’re not ready for a commitment”
“Maybe I’m not” I snapped, “I’m not forcing you to wait Kris, if you want to move on, I’m plenty fine with that”
“I know you don’t understand it Kris, please just respect how I feel”
“Why do you make it so difficult to love you sometimes?”
“This is just who I am”
I looked at both of them and felt overwhelmed. Look at them, the both of them are perfection. I’m just the girl that they both happened to fall in love with, at the same time. Sometimes I really don’t feel like I’m even worth either of their time.
“I’m sorry” I said, “if you want to wait, then wait, if you don’t then I’ll have to deal with it and move on. I’ll just call you guys”
They both just nodded and I turned on my heel towards Kristi’s place. This should be simple, because I’m not even in love with Max. I’m in love with Kris. Right?
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