I know you don't want to hear this, but Please Be Mine will be ending very shortly. But there are still some surprises ahead. It would be really great if I could get a decent amount of comments on the next couple chapters. I know I haven't been posting regularly, but I think some inspiration is coming back. So enjoy, and comment please !
There was a part of me that got kind of excited, but the other part was disappointment.
I looked up as I heard a knock on the doorframe. I have to admit, this was not my finest hour. Getting out of bed never is. I quickly ran my fingers through my hair and fluffed it out a bit.
“I have to get to work” Kristi said, “I’ll be back later tonight”
“Alright…see you then”
I heard the front door of the apartment shut and I continued to keep eye contact with Max, “Hi”
“How did you find me?” I asked.
“Friend of a friend…I have my ways” he smirked.
I just laughed, “Well it’s nice to see you, but why are you here?”
“I don’t know…I had to see you”
“I wasn’t exactly…expecting company” I replied, “If you couldn’t tell”
He just laughed, “I can tell”
“Max, I told you I needed--”
“I know” he interrupted, “I just, I need you to know that I love you, and whatever you decide, it’s okay with me. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I can’t always get what I want”
I just sighed and hung my feet off the edge of my bed. My head was spinning, when wasn’t it spinning? I just don’t understand this at all. Why me?
“I don’t know how it ended up like this”
“I fell in love with Kris, and I never even expected for him to reciprocate those feelings. Yet, he finally did, and we’ve been through a lot, and I don’t know how he still loves me now. I’ve screwed up, countless times, made a fool of myself, it makes no sense. And why you fell for me is beyond my comprehension”
He just chuckled, “You don’t give yourself enough credit”
“We love you for you. You take care of everyone before you even realize that you’re a mess. You’ll do anything to brighten a situation. Your laugh is contagious, and the way you can so easily just strike up a conversation with a random stranger. You have this vibe about you Jules, a happy one. And you practically keep us all in check, without you around Kris and I might have killed each other already” he was sitting down beside me at this point.
I just smirked, “That last part is true”
“There’s that smile I’ve been waiting for” he replied.
“I’m sorry Max, for getting us all into this”
“It’s okay, I just hope you make the right choice, I’ll be here for you no matter what”
He just stood up from the bed and leaned down to place a kiss on my forehead, “I love you”
“I know” I simply replied.
He walked out of the bedroom and out the front door. I just laid sideways across the bed and closed my eyes. I needed to picture who I could see myself with in five, ten, twenty years from now, when they retire from hockey, and we have 3 kids standing in front of us, and a gorgeous ring on my left hand.
Right now, it’s sad to say I don’t know.
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